Vision becoming a reality
How do I articulate in one Blog entry ten years of prayers answered? It won’t be an easy task, but one I will give my best effort.
Isaiah 64:4, For from days of old they have not heard or perceived by ear, Nor has the eye seen a God besides YOU, WHO ACTS IN BEHALF OF THE ONE WHO WAITS FOR HIM.
After my divorce in 2001, I was devastated in my spirit. My heart bled with the consequences of sin and hurt that penetrated so deep that only the BLOOD OF CHRIST could heal. Constantly going to my God, I began to put the pieces of my life back together. It was that year that I humbly yet boldly requested that my God use my hurt and mistakes for His glory alone!! I was convinced that my God wanted to use me! No matter where I had been or what had been done, God is a gracious God. When we draw close to God, He truly does draw close to us! I began praying for God to reveal His direction for my life. I left my hometown in Indiana and packed up and went to Liberty University. It was there that I poured my heart and life out to my God. I served in any capacity that would have me. I was glued to my Bible, soaking up the holy words that spoke so personally. I was consumed with my God. I was sent out as a female intern to a church in Columbus Oh in 2003. Still praying for direction God kept putting on my heart a teen girl conference. I was intrigued by the thought, but didn’t think God could really be calling me the Divorcee to do such a thing. After all, I was told that God would never use me. As I began to pray deeper and deeper on that very thing God began to speak louder and louder. One day, sitting on a metal chair on the back patio of my host home I got my answer. As I begged for clarity and the conference I looked down and my Bible was opened to Habakkuk 2:1-4.
I will stand on my guard post and station myself on the rampart; and I will keep watch to see what He will speak to me, and how I may reply when I a reproved.
THEN THE LORD ANSWERED ME AND SAID,
RECORD THE VISION AND INSCRIBE IT ON TABLETS THAT THE ONE WHO READS IT MAY RUN FOR THE VISION IS YET FOR THE APPOINTED TIME, IT HASTENS TOWARD THE GOAL AND IT WILL NOT FAIL
THOUGH IT TARRIES, WAIT FOR IT; FOR IT WILL SURELY COME IT WILL NOT DELAY.
I sat in a pool of tears. I knew. God couldn’t have spoken any clearer. He shouted at me that day. Now it was up to me to wait for His timing. Continuing to pray year after year I did not have any sign of this coming to fruition. Obviously, He needed time to work. He worked on me, on my broken heart, on my faith, on my willingness to abandon all to Him. Several times, in the last few years I have thought, “this is it”, it is going to happen here, just to be told NO. No, to a woman with a survivors spirit is devastating, but it does not defeat. I knew through the years God in His time would make it happen. I was confident that MY GOD would not disappoint. After nine years of praying, only becoming more and more confident in my call, I finally got a YES. When we met with Pastor Jeffress at First Baptist Dallas who was considering Eddie for the open youth position I asked if he would be willing to allow a teen girl conference to be housed at church. When he gave a confident YES, I began to weep, right in his office.
He had no idea that I had been praying for 9 years for the opportunity to speak truth to our sweet girls.
The first ever BLUSH conference will be held at First Baptist Dallas on January 14 and 15th 2011.
I praise my God for beginning to do what only He can do…..the impossible.
I don’t know if you are waiting for something that you know God has called you to. I know we ALL HAVE A DESIRE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE. We all want to be part of something bigger than ourselves. My advice to you is DO NOT GIVE UP. Pray fervently and without rest. God will bring it to pass, if we stand steadfast on His promises to us!
I leave you with this:
Not one of the good promises which the Lord had made to the house of Israel failed; all came to pass.