I tried not to focus on the pain I was feeling emotionally as I broke the news to my children that day this past October that the birthmother that we had been matched with was not pregnant. Feeling emotions that I didn’t expect to feel in the process of adoption seemed to engulf me the weeks leading up to confirming that our birthmother that was carrying the twins we were to adopt at the beginning of 2014 was a scammer. Through an unrest in my spirit, which was brought on by the Lord, I was the one who uncovered the lies of this woman and finally caught her red-handed. There we sat, just a few weeks later staring at my children’s faces who were ecstatic about the idea of welcoming two other little lives into our home. My children, who in an instant would be kind to anyone and if they knew of a hurting heart, would help it, now stared at be blankly as the evil of this world had stung them. We sat in silence as the information was processed by my two little treasures. In as mild a manner as possible Eddie and I explained what had happened. Their eyes dropped as they realized the finality and reality of the situation. As their mother, I wanted to shoulder the disappointment that they were feeling, I wanted to be the one that felt the pain in their place. But there I sat, after waiting almost a year for the news to be matched, we were in an unpredictable situation.
My mind has wrestled with how to manage such a grievance against humanity. How can an individual feel it okay to play deviously with the emotions of a family that desperately wants to love their child. This particular woman wasn’t pregnant at all and had lied to all parties included to a point of even producing fake documents. Through this battle against injustice God in His amazing way gave me the gift of a word. On days that the pain seared, He seemed to drop a this word in my spirit to encourage my heart. This word cannot be stolen. It cannot become illegal. It is the greatest of gifts that our God has given us through His Son, Jesus. The word is hope.
Hope. The word alone baffles the soul that has been abused by the world, and yet it remains. This past month hope has been the theme of my thoughts. Hope is the prerequisite to faith. If you can hope you can have faith and if faith is present so is belief. You literally cannot have faith without first daring to hope that something is possible. In our world filled with Miley Syrus’s who dance simulating sex with a Santa Claus and the attack on freedom of speech brought on by the circumstances with Phil Robertson and Duck Dynasty it is comforting to know that NO ONE can steal my hope. My hope in my future is secure because of my Jesus being born in the most destitute of circumstances to be slain on a cross for me. It is concrete. In the fleeting circumstances that attempt to act as a thief and steal our hope, they cannot if we do not let them.
- Hope against Hope – Abraham when considering the age of himself and Sara hoped anyway. Why? Because He had a solemn promise from God Himself. His body or his age couldn’t dictate what God had already governed. Romans 4:18a, In hope against hope he believed. He knew (Rom. 4:17) God gives life to the dead and calls into being that which does not exist. Abraham didn’t hope in his circumstances or he would have been completely depressed not seeing any possibility of a child, rather he hoped in God the Author of impossibility.
- Hope does not disappoint – Romans 5:5 And hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us. We cannot be disappointed when we utilize the overwhelming strength and love of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit guides, it instructs, it strengthens and encourages. Because of the gift of the Holy Spirit we have hope and help. When relying on His prompting and His guidance through things God has asked us to do we are ensured of a favorable end. If God has asked us to do something, the Spirit will enable us clear direction on how to do it. Hope will never disappoint when we are sensitive to the Spirit of God.
- Faith is hope when it is believed – Hebrews 11:1, Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for the conviction of things not seen. If we dare to hope, then we can dare to believe. Faith can start the moment we develop hope. Many people stop at hope and faith never develop because of hard circumstances or disappointments. Faith springs up when hope is challenged and unaltered. No one can take it from you, it’s a choice to believe.
This year, My family was desperately needing the whimsical lightheartedness this season brings. I have found every excuse possible to watch a Christmas movie or drink some hot chocolate. Knowing that my God loved me so much to send His Son through Mary to give me eternal hope this season has encouraged me richly.
Hope is the gift that He has given you as well. Drink of the blessing of it today and understand that it is concrete in its nature and no one can remove it from you.
Merry Christmas. I pray God enriches your idea of hope.
For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, MIGHTY GOD, ETERNAL FATHER, PRINCE OF PEACE.