This is for you who are struggling with crazy, crazy fear, and you have been struggling with some fear for a long time – any type of fear: fear of a vision, fear of a direction, fear of the unknown, just fear in general, fear of something you think is going to happen but it’s not going to happen. This is for YOU. I am telling you that God wants you to WRESTLE IT OUT WITH HIM, and He wants you to have VICTORY over this fear in your life, because He wants you to know that He has taken care of whatever it is that you are afraid of!!!
I’m in Genesis chapter 32 (it has a super long back story // to condense it very, very much: Jacob had a brother named Esau. Esau was the firstborn. Jacob stole Esau’s birthright. That made Esau very angry and he said, “I’m going to kill Jacob, because he stole my birthright.” That was the last that Jacob had heard from Esau until this portion of the story.) Esau comes to Jacob’s servant and says, “I’m coming for Jacob with 400 men. (Now, this is years after Jacob stole the birthright, but he was still TERRIFIED that Esau was going to kill him. So this is what he did:
22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. 23 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. 24 So Jacob was left alone,
Sometimes God needs to get you 100% COMPLETELY ALONE, and He wants you to WRESTLE SOMETHING OUT WITH HIM IN PRAYER!!!
This fear that you’ve been facing for so long, and you’ve been worried about it for so long, and it’s been paralyzing you for so long – God wants you to get alone and He wants you to WORK and GRAPPLE and WRESTLE it out with Him!! This is why I know that:
24 band a man wrestled with him till daybreak. 25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 26 Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”
Listen, listen, listen to me right here. I’ve read this passage 4 million times (well, not really, but it feels like that many).
24Then Jacob was left alone and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.
We know from the passage that IT WAS GOD that he wrestled with. God decided ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, Jacob. This FEAR and DISTRUST in God that you’ve been carrying all these years is enough – ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. So when Jacob got himself alone, the Lord appeared to him, basically picked a fight with him, and they went round and round and round; they wrestled all night long. But, this is what happens in the story (which is unbelievable): When He, the man, (we know it was God because an upcoming verse is about to tell us) saw that He had not prevailed against him, when He saw that there was some BREAKTHROUGH in Jacob with this fear, when He saw that there was something in Jacob that had SHIFTED, He touched the socket of his thigh and it was dislocated. He said,
26“Let me go, for dawn is breaking.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
We know from the story that Jacob suffered from fear for SO LONG – his greatest fear was that his brother, Esau, would kill him; Esau was CHASING AFTER HIM. God saw that specific fear as an OPPORTUNITY to step in and say “Enough is enough, I want you to WRESTLE THIS OUT WITH ME!!! I want to go round and round with you until I see that there is a BREAKTHROUGH in you. I want to know that you actually, for the first time, will TRUST ME; that you PUT YOUR TRUST IN ME AND NOT IN YOUR FEAR!!!!! I want you to SILENCE ALL THIS FEAR about your brother, Esau, because I AM BIGGER than that!!” Then He (GOD) says,
26Let me go, for dawn is breaking.
Something BROKE THROUGH that night because of the WRESTLE!!!!! Then God BLESSES Jacob and,
30Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.”
I want to just talk very straight with you, because I’m OBSESSED with this! I believe that we ALLOW OURSELVES to be in fear and anxiety over whatever we are afraid or anxious of. We can tarry, tarry, tarry in this fear and anxiety and this absolute ridiculousness for WAY TOO LONG. Then, GOD STEPS IN and we are CONFRONTED WITH THAT FEAR right then, right now!!! God steps in when we are confronted with our fear!! Maybe something has happened: maybe there’s a shift in your job, maybe there is a shift in your finances, maybe there’s a shift in your health. It’s when we are confronted with that fear, just like Jacob was, that God steps in and says, “I’m about to DO SOMETHING GREAT, but are you going to TRUST me BEFORE I do that? I want to wrestle this out with you!! I want you to know that I AM GOD, and even though I can OVERPOWER you, I am going to hang WITH YOU.”
The only thing that God did to Jacob was touch his hip. God did this so that Jacob could see that He had the power to overpower him, but He didn’t. The wrestling was just enough. The pressure was JUST ENOUGH for there to be a BREAKTHROUGH in Jacob.
Chapter 33 – 1Jacob looked up and there was Esau, coming with his four hundred men; so he divided the children among Leah, Rachel and the two female servants. 2He put the female servants and their children in front, Leah and her children next, and Rachel and Joseph in the rear. 3He himself went on ahead and bowed down to the ground seven times as he approached his brother. 4But Esau ran to meet Jacob and embraced him; he threw his arms around his neck and kissed him. And they wept.
The VERY THING that Jacob was scared of for so many years DIDN’T EVEN HAPPEN!!! It didn’t even happen. It was fear for NOTHING!!!!!! God ANSWERED HIS PRAYER!!!! Jacob had to WRESTLE IT OUT with the Lord BEFORE he saw the answer to it.
What is absolutely terrifying YOU? What have you been scared of for TOO LONG? For too many years, you’ve felt this sense of DOOM about something. God is done with you being so fearful about that thing!!! A man wrestled with him until daybreak. I believe that God is saying, “Listen, I want to pick a fight with you a little bit. I want you to tell me how you’re feeling. I want you to wrestle this thing out with me. I want to show you in Scripture how much I LOVE YOU, how much I’M THERE FOR YOU, how FAITHFUL I am, how WONDERFUL I am!!! If you just BRING IT TO ME and wrestle it out with me, tomorrow when daybreak comes, your VICTORY is going to come as well.”
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!!!!
Wrestle it out, because DAYBREAK IS COMING!!!! Jacob did it, and he was FREED FROM HIS FEAR!!! I know that God wants that for YOU too.
I hope this encourages your heart. I hope there is a call to action: wrestle that thing out with the Lord; tell Him how you’re feeling, tell Him how frustrated you are. Be RAW with God!! Forget “religion” in the way you approach God. APPROACH HIM RAW with AUTHENTICITY, knowing that He is a God that can handle your fear!!!!!!! Know that there is NO FEAR IN LOVE, but PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUT FEAR!!!! He is waiting to give you daybreak in your life!!
Love you guys.